Aliyah's Surgery

Tomorrow Aliyah get's to finish the process we started over two years ago when she was only 10 months old. On a fateful day in April of 06, both of her eardrums burst causing horrific pain and a lot of screaming and crying.

She was inconsolable, I didn't know what the hell was wrong with her and I rushed her into urgent care to be told she was in a lot of pain. It sucked because we had just seen her ear specialist the week before and he wanted to wait on tubes until the fall because he thought we should "wait" it out and see if she got better on her own.

He wasn't more wrong and I resented him for a very long time, even though it was stupid to do so. No one can predict the future, not even a doctor. The instant those tubes were in, she was like a brand new baby. No more walking around in a fog of depression because your baby was constantly crying or fussing or going in to see her pediatrition for another ear infection. No more sleepless nights, fighting with Ben over "babying" her or feeling panic stricken and sick with worry over what was wrong with her.

And those were just my problems, selfish as they all are when you think of what Aliyah had to endure. My poor baby was sick all the time, getting poked and prodded, forced antibiotics down her throat everyday for 6 months, having pressure on your ears when you lied down, never being able to sleep, experiencing hearing loss, and having your ears full of gunk and blood.

Ah, we've come a long way indeed.

Those little pieces of plastic were heaven sent I tell you.

And tomorrow, we get the remaining one in her right ear removed. The left one fell out 6 months ago, but that stubborn right one never did. Put it to Aliyah to be that rare 2% whose tube doesn't fall out on it's own, but has to be surgically removed. So we are going to Children's Hospital tomorrow to get a small surgery done to get it removed. I feel sick thinking of her having to be under anesethia, but it has to be done.

And she is a brave little girl.

Mommy loves you Lele. Mommy loves.